100

Salam

For my 100th post, I would like to have a little say on all thats been going on in life. In my life especially.

As far as I'm aware, I haven't been the best a person could be. To err is human, but to do more than just err is Mukhlis. I have had ups and downs in life, all sent by Allah as a test, as a method, as a path, to grant me the things I ask from Him in my prayers.

Alhamdulillah.
I would like to thank Allah for granting me the best of companions, from blood brothers to bond brothers, from blood sisters to bond sisters, they have all coloured my life. A hadith narrated reminds us all about the importance of keeping the best of companions, being able to choose who to befriend, who to keep as company and who to help us mould into a better individual.

"Keep the company of a perfume seller. If you don't end up selling perfume, at least the sweet scent is passed onto you. But do not be the company of a blacksmith for all you'll get is dirt"

I'm sorry for the poor remembrance of this hadith. If anyone can correct me, I would really appreciate it. Anyway, this hadith underlines the importance of who we keep as friends. I've had friends, from the best scoring students in our country to drug addicts and thiefs. But lets not discriminate, befriending people of all type is a blessing. We celebrate the diversity in human nature. However, always have in mind of whom we let shape us, our personality, our attitude and behaviour.

To 0105, I would like to thank you from the bottom of my heart. For you guys brought the best out of me. I was at the top of my potential back then. Exploring all I could, trying to top achievement after achievement. Allah definitely granted my doa when I prayed for success. He didn't land a block of success in from of my cubicle door, instead he gave comrades who spurred me on towards achieving the success.

KMB was a whole different scenario. I never knew how to get along with girls and it was sort of a shock. I made my classmate cry on the very first few days in class, not knowing how to handle their fragility. God created them so delicate that a throw of a pen could make them cry. He allowed me to widen my perspective and recruit more knowledge and experience towards becoming a wiser person. I had the notorious Blok A Crew as friends, apart from all the others. I'ld like to apologise to these guys, as I never really made the best of the opportunity Allah granted me when he included me into this brotherhood. I pursued things that my heart desired, a thing so bold that it blinded my sight. I lost track of those who would be there for me no matter what. A few years on, I can only look back and sigh. Allah, I've learnt my lesson.

Fiat Sapientia Virtus
Let manliness come through wisdom. The motto of MCKK said it all along, but I was a naive kid back then and didnt really see the greater message in the motto. 5years on, I'm starting to understand and decipher the ocean of meaning behind these 3words. Ups and downs in life will make me tougher, stronger, wiser and more abled to face the vast unknown future. With each passing heartbreak, each laughter and hardship, my arsenal of experience is growing, allowing me to foresee possible outcomes should I encounter the same situations again in life. Options I once looked pass could be the best choice in the future. For all I know, may Allah guide me through all this.

I've broken a few hearts, all so vividly fresh in my mind. Each one so deeply affected by my actions and words. God gave me charm, but I misused it. My mentor Pn Salma reminded me once back in KMB, to be careful with God's gift. Use it for righteousness, insyaAllah life will be smooth sailing. Abuse it, only Allah will repay the deeds. I've made mistakes, and I wish I never did. But thats what a lesson is. You have to endure it to be able to learn. And from that as well you learn that the world does not evolve around you. You're not the centre of the universe. At times you feel so in control that you take things for granted. You try to change things, people, environment without the realisation that they are already the best for you. That is the time that we often call as chance, opportunity, window or whatever terminology you can think of. When this time-space frame closes, you'll suddenly realise you wasted something that can never be recovered. When you finally start scrambling, "too little too late" is what people often throw at you. I've had my heart shattered for the first time and I tell you, it sucks big time. More deservingly for me, it was a double blow. Padan muka aku. But nevertheless, you are the determinant of your future. You only have yourself as a limiting factor. so bounce back and be better. And thats exactly what I intend to do, insyaAllah. To all those out there that I've hurt, I seek your forgiveness and would like to thank all of you. Without all of you, I would never have realised where I stand.

In about 5 weeks time, I'm about to endure my 3rd year studying medicine. People in Leeds, despite my air and coolness, I still need your support to continue doing my best. I wish we can continue helping each other and stay together and graduate in about 3years time. Slips and falls are only to help us mature, so have faith in Allah and you'll see the beauty in all He does.

With the arrival of ramadhan, I seek forgiveness to all those I've wronged and I pray for us all. If you've wronged me, don't fret. I hardly remember things done to me as I am a forgiver. I also forget. =P So if you see me around and we've had a bad history, just shout out and wave or something because once you're a friend of mine, you'll always be.

I think thats long enough for now. Selamat berpuasa, selamat bertarawih dan moga ramadhan kali ni lebih baik daripada yang lepas, in every sense of the word. I will pen off now.

"Allahummaghfirlil muslimeena wal muslimaat, mukmineena wal mukminaat. Allahumma inna nasaluka ridhaaka wal jannah wa na'udhubika min sakhaatika wannaar"


Ha adik-adik! solat!!