Give and gain

Not in the picture sbb dok pegang camera
Left to right: cot, ijal, am, unet (my lil bro) and dino

Its 3.04am
Im stuck doing my SSC
I thought i'ld just let my mind wander off a bit
let it rejuvenate


I kinda dislike how life nowadays are
I'm not gonna moan and say its shitty
but I dunno, i seem to like it a lot more the way it was
or maybe i like my childhood better

Kecik-kecik dulu, no tepon kwn2 semua kena hafal
mana ada enset2 ni. skrg kalo hilang enset,
dua no je aku hfl: no tepon mama n ayah kt msia.
tuh pon sbb dulu sekolah masih lg pakai public phone
kalo hilang phone skrg, mau mati kutu

Dulu kalo nk info kwn2, mana ada mintak send contacts
sama ada hafal or mintak diorg tulis dlm buku biodata
kalo nk info awek2, mana ada stalk kt facebook
either mintak directly or through their friends
Skrg mana ada, love is no longer 'in person' kinda stuff
Tgk screen pon boley jatuh cinta
macam2 skrg ni

dulu rasa paling gembira masa pangakah gasing member
kasi terbelah, plg kurang bertakuk ar
penah kena maki dgn mama
sbb seharian kt dapur masa hari sabtu
dok bakar paku guna stove dapur smpi merah
pastu dok ketuk dgn hammer nk kasi mantap
pastu baru pasang balik kt body gasing
sape gasing dh season, bekas bertakuk kena pangkah dgn mmbr lain
gasing2 bertakuk ni special
sbb bila dia pusing, dia ada bunyi
gasing2 ni jugak la yg kitorg warnakan cantik2
sbb bila dia putar, kaler2 ni bercampur
jd cantik gila. tmbh dgn bunyi, mmg sentimental

nk gi umh mmbr dulu nek basikal
kalo wt convoy, lg macho
ramai2 beremba (bak kata org kedah)
in other words, saing skali gerak.
skrg budak x main sgt dh basikal
baik main PSP ke, Wii ke, PS3 ke
basikal pon tgk dlm tv je
tgk x-games.
dulu aku ada basikal BMX
setiap satu part dia aku beli n pasang sendiri
basikal tuh warna biru metallic
tuh pon aku spray paint sendiri
ikat guna tube tayar basikal n gantung kt titi
masuk dlm longkang bwh titi tuh
n sembur base layer warna putih
pastu 2nd layer warna biru metallic
pastu finishing layer spray laquer.

drpd ball bearing dlm gandar tmpt kayuh tuh
kpd ball bearing dlm giro kt sepit udang (fork utk tyr dpn)
semua aku psg dgn tgn sendiri.
ble dh psg giro, bangga beb
sbb baru handle bar bley pusing 360 darjah sbb dh x sangkut wayar brek.
baru mcm BMX dlm tv tuh

dulu kalo nk tgk tv, biasanya kena buka newspaper dulu
tgk bhgn intisari rancangan
kurang2 pon, hfl la tiap2 minggu or hari ada rancangan apa
skrg mana ada, tekan button kt remote control astro tuh je
patut la result bdk2 skrg tiap2 tahun makin up
sbb diorg dh xyh hafal no tepon kwn2, rancangan2 tv semua
so byk sket ruang dlm otak nk hfl mende2 akademik

tp aku bukanlah org yg anti technology
aku type ni pon guna laptop
cuma aku rasa life skrg dh x 'menarik'
aku tau x ramai penah panjat pokok kelapa smpi pucuk mcm aku
tp at least bdk2 skrg still panjat pokok x?
still main pondok2 or masak2 or kawen2 x?
kalo basikal sendiri rosak, reti baiki ke x (kalo ada basikal)?

ntah la, maybe sbb aku bdk kampung kot aku wat menda2 ni


mandi telaga depan rumah

*back to ssc*

Easier said than done

Nak masuk syurga, xnk prepare utk masuk syurga
Xnak kena seksa dalam kubur, tp xnk ready utk mati
Nak pandai, tp malas belajar
Nak markah assignment tinggi, tp xnk invest masa utk buat betul2
nk badan ketul2, tp malas exercise
nk kurus, tp makan mcm tong sampah

nk isteri solehah, tp sendiri xmau jd soleh
nk kaya, tp xnk berjimat
nk kenyang, tp xnk masak
nk menang, tp xnk berusaha
nk rasa hebat, tp xnk perelok diri
nk perhatian, tp tau merungut ja

nak jd the best, tp xnk kalahkan the current best
nk jd org beriman, tp amal x bertambah
nk siapkn SSC, tp dok layan movie
nk kaki sehat, tp dok main before doctor bg
xnk kena penyakit, tp makan minum x jaga
nk kawan ramai, tp perangai dgn org x ubah

nk bergaya, tp xnk spend duit beli baju
nk makan kenyang, tp lg rela pau mknn org
nk hebat dlm permainan, tp tunjuk ajar xnk dgr
nk tuhan sayang, tp xnk sayang tuhan
nk pahala byk, tp smyg jemaah xnk buat
nk org respect, tp kerja dok perlekeh org

nk diterima, tp xnk bergaul
nk gembira, tp xnk buang sedih
nk menerima, tp xnk memberi
nk panas, tp xnk pakai baju elok2
nk sihat, tp kebersihan xnk jaga

nk apa lagi? tp xnk buat apa lagi?

in economy, there is never a gain-gain situation, or win-win. When theres a gain, something will always have to give. Its only a matter of how you view giving; an investment or a loss.

Pain

I have a pain in my knee
It's there when I go into deep flexion
Or when i try to snap my leg straight
As in walking or taking a shot in football

It's onset varies
Sometimes it's sudden and somtimes it's slow and gradual
But there you go
It is a bit of a mystery

I'ld like to say its a dull ache
but sometimes it can be very sharp
making my leg jerk like a fish on land
trying to relieve the pressure from deep flexion

It radiates up my thigh
Starting just above the patella
And then higher up
more focused on my gluteus medius
It aches at times
Especially when walking on slippery surfaces

Theres also pain in my chest
Not to forget my head and down my right arm
especially over the knuckles
It swells and bruises and bleeds
Luckily the left arms alright
Maybe because I damaged it when I fractured my radius

It happens at night
Sometimes into the wee hours of the morning
It makes me shout in frustration and anger
I know sometimes adrenalin adds to this
And I'm pretty sure I've plenty of that

It gets worse when I think about it
Or put my attention to it
But it definitely gets better when I sleep
When I'm able to, ignoring it helps too

Scale? I'll give it a heartbreaker rate
So bad it breaks me, mentally, physically and emotionally
It hurts so bad sometimes that I smash my hands with something hard
Just to take away my thought from it
They say physical pain can temporarily relieve it
Thats what I do
I know its not good
But temporary relief is better than constant pain

What's wrong with me doc?

Another favourite

I've nothing much. No money, no looks, not even a healthy knee. Lucky me I have brains.
Oh, and you as well. *kenyit mata*