And her new movie is out. But I've not watched it yet. Thinking about it.
Anyway, just how important is getting the spiritual side of things right?
Roberts' movie is more like a quest in finding inner peace I think. Not that I've seen it, but thats what I've been told. It's amazing really how people go on pilgrimages, scouring the whole world in search of 'peace'. Madonna had the kabalah. Cat Steven found Islam. So did Mike Tyson and Muhammad Ali. Its alway working towards an infinite objective. I believe every word uttered by Ustazah Johaina. What is your purpose in life? There is only one objective and purpose that will not leave you deserted and that is lillahi Taala. There will never a definite amount of things you can do to please The Almighty, therefore you will live your life purposeful. If you want to get rich, once you get rich what do you do? If you want a family and kids, once you get that what do you do? If you so badly want a holiday, once your term ends you just go beserk and lost.
I am looking for something to revive me. Its only been the 2nd week of the term but I feel like I'm carrying the fatigue from last term. Is my physical, emotional or spiritual need that is unmet? What is this emptiness? I don't know, but it sure is taking its toll. I use to have a full face, slightly puffed cheeks, broader shoulders, better balance and an abundance of energy. But most of that is gone. You can call it disuse atrophy but I wanna know why. People see me and tell me I've become thin, listless, 'ghesang', kurus, slim, whatever synonym you can find. If I were a girl yeah, I might be beaming with pride but I'm not. Maybe I should take up yoga. Or maybe just spend more time going to the mosque. Free of charge.
Should I dance to make myself fitter? I dunno, what do you think?
I love the way they synchronise the dance. The bit by bit advancement in the dancers. Like properly choreographed. But, hey, when am I gonna be able to join in? Do I need to go to Chicago? Why can't I just join in anywhere and still fit in and move with synchrony? Maybe I can..
Anyway, I wanna take a break now. Push all books aside, get my drawing pad out, sit by the pier and draw all I can. Let the see breeze caress my cheeks, let the gulls glide with the waves. I wanna pull out my guitar and bask for the pedestrians. What a lovely dream. =)
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