What makes you, you?

I hung around today, just sat in town. Sat on the freezing steel benches the city council laid out for old hags to have a sit and warm their asses. Life was always buzzing, the chaos humans create, trying to fulfil their daily needs. As I sat there, worrying in my mind the super-mind-messing renal lectures I had this morning, I wondered what makes us, us? Whiffs of bakery scent caught my attention, gastric juice gurgling inside. This pretty lady passed, the scent of Estee Lauder Exotic struck me. Owh yeah, I know that smell. I treasure it. I saw a young lad, standing there in betwenn Debenhams and Harvey Nichols, strumming away on his guitar, singing his heart out. Yeah, he was happy. Was I?

In the midst of the glum coloured array of humans, someone passed in a sundown orange trench coat. She must've felt spring in her soul already. She didnt mind if she looked like an idiot, wearing that eye catching attire. Probably because to her, she is who she is. Fine with that.

Sometimes, and almost all the times, I wonder, what makes you, you? What makes us, us? If it was school, captain Mohd Shah 05 was me. But note that, WAS. How bout you? Going to KMB, rubgy team captain WAS me again. Who am I now? A medic student at Leeds. Is that all to my name? Is that the identity I carry?

Selipar kelabu tali putih is am, selipar celoreng askar is dedust, taksin pakai selipar brown, abu pakai selipar bowling hitam biru putih. apek plak selipar pink kot. cucam selipar hitam or oren, depends sape punya dia curi. Mine is selipar macam kapal tuh, asadi nak tiru crocs. Adakah selipar-selipar ni identiti kita?

Issey Miyake, Versace, Nike, Nikon, Burberry, Ted Baker, Firetrap, G-Star, Armani, Polo Ralph Lauren, Evisu, Dolce and Gabbana, etc. Why are we living for all this? Does it make us a better person if we had all? Is that the identity we carry? Or is it being top of the list, super-smart nerd, best of your batch? Having friends to hang around to show to the world, yeah, your life is great yet none of them really care for you and their merely there for the free food? Is it being able to laugh at others, idiotize them and exhale deeply as you feel you're a better person?

Its always the diversity in us that makes us, us. I wouldn't want to live with a population who wears, act, sing, talk, look, eat and does everything else the same as I do. Yet, I still value humbleness and hope to achieve a level of it myself. When you look down on someone, be it a rubbertapper, just remember (s)he knows how to tap rubber better than you do. If you find an identity that suits me, can you please let me know?