Does it really matter?

Here are some things I thought didn't really matter to me, but eventually made me a glum guy:

1. Missing a few points on getting honours for my 1st medic module
2. playing football with friends, said it was for the fun of it & not really to win, but i do wanna win.
3. letting etuc go, but do i wanna do that? I guess so.
4. tak balik msia cuti nnt
5. having 8 pairs of shoes & not knowing when to wear them
6. doing an assignment witht the aim of just finishing off n not care bout the marks i get
7. sitting in class n absorbing people's ideas when i really feel like, "thats a stupid idea, dumbass!"
8. paying 2pounds for a meal at flames when i can buy a whole raw chicken with the same amount of money (sekor ayam 3-4 hari mkn kot!!)
9. see friends having fun without me
10. being a medic & being busy (bdk2 course lain lepak gle)
11. say i dont mind you doing that, go ahead. (i do really mind you daft headed person! or am i daft? altruism la konon)

those are the few things yg dok wat aku sewel skrg ni. nk kena gi main bola ni, kasi lega sket.