Ustaz Latiff

Salam

Dear ustaz, I've no idea where you are now or how you are. I hope you're in the best of health. To be honest, there are not many things I remember about you. But among those I do remember was when you thrusted your palm into Poji's face at the surau after you found his towel on the bus in the garage after you chased after the lot who escaped subuh jemaah prayer. I remembered how shattered he was when you smacked 7 shades of light out of his head. I also remembered after that you were so angry at them that you went outside the surau and smashed your handphone into the ground. You were shaking and trembling from anger. everyone knew you for your hot-headedness and incontrollable anger.

but the other part of you that I remember is this:

"apabila kita melakukan kejahatan, apabila kita melakukan dosa, maka akan bertambah satu titik hitam di hati. lama-lama, gelaplah hati. oleh itu anak-anak, bersihkanlah hati kita. InsyaAllah akan berkuranglah bintik-bintik hitam itu dan terbukalah hati. OK, semua ikot saya baca..."



From that day onwards, I remembered reading this piece of selawat at least once everynight before I go to bed. But I found that as time passed, I forgot all the good things I used to do. I took my memorising capabilities for granted. I hurt people directly or indirectly. I boasted with my abilities and held my head in riak. May Allah forgive me. I weaned away from the selawat, especially since uni started. And now, I'm probably facing the consequences. I'm finding it harder to memorise. Is it normal human physiology? No, I'm only 22 and not even at my peak yet. So there has to be something to it. Among the reason I now realise is that I no longer recite this selawat. Astaghfirullah. Allah has guided me back on track. =)

There was also a story of a famous imam who lost his memory and began fogetting the hadith he remembered. After asking his teacher, he was told the cause would probably be from sinning and was to go back, reflect and seek forgiveness from Allah for the sin. Alhamdulillah, his memory was reinstalled and may ours too, not just reinstalled but strengthened insyaAllah.